Random Thoughts...

These past few weeks I have a had a lot on my mind and wonder what will be in store for Jason and I in the up coming year. I wonder will this be the last holiday season we celebrate as just the two of us? Will I have a baby next year to dress up for Halloween? Will this be the last year that I teach school? Will our family picture that we just had taken be out dated soon?

It seems like it was just last month that we were right in the middle of In Vitro and were anxiously anticipating becoming pregnant. Now 3 months later we are right in the middle of it again. I have started doing the shots and taking all the extra hormones to prepare my body for the embryo transfer that we will do the second week in November. We are also right in the middle of doing all the paper work that is required to adopt. I'm excited to think that we are getting one step closer to starting our family.

We are pursuing adoption through LDS Family Services. It has been great having a place to turn to that is ran by the church and is lead by the Spirit. One of the many requirements that we have to do is attend 5 classes held on a weekly basis. So far is has been a wonderful experience to meet together with others couples that are going through the same challenges we are. Each week there are many tears shed, but it amazes me the spirit that is present, and how it leaves us feeling encouraged and excited for what the future will bring. Our class last night was very therapeutic. One of the topics that we discussed was, Being infertile in a fertile church. They handed out a paper that I felt like hint it right on the head the feelings that come with infertility.

*Trying to be happy for your friend who's on her 2nd or 3rd pregnancy.
*Hating your "broken body"
*Doctors: hating them...worshipping them.
*Wondering if you will ever get a Mother's Day of Father's Day card.
*Picking a name for your baby.. & then growing tired of it before you use it.
*Always going to other people's homes for dinner so THEY don't have to get a babysitter.
* Falling apart...every month
* Knowing (better than most) how conception happens, yet having to put up with stupid advice and crude jokes.
* Feeling empty and sad almost all of the time.
*Wondering...Why us?
*Having a "guestroom" & wishing it were a "nursery" instead.
* Secretly hating every pregnant woman you see.
*Dreading "another" Christmas without the child you long for
*An ONGOING process

I thought this was a great list and pretty much summed it all up. I know things are going to work out the way they are suppose to. I just need to remember that, and start enjoying the life that I have right now. Who knows, one day I will probably look back and wish I had taken more time to enjoy just Jason and I being together.


Happy Halloween from
Jason, Kaylee, and Dora

The other night for Family Home Evening with the Cooks, we got together to carve our pumpkins and enjoy each others company. Jason is very artistic and always does a great job with his pumpkin.

I love Conference Weekend!!!

Some of my favorite things this time of year include: fall, leaves changing, conference weekend, and cooler weather. If you put all of those things together you get a perfect weekend.

On Friday Dave and Mindy invited us to go golfing up at Sherwood Hills. It is such a beautiful golf course especially this time of year. I really don't know how to golf that well, but I do enjoy driving the golf carts and enjoying the atmosphere. Mindy and I usually end up talking most of the time while the boys golf. Thanks for a fun date night guys, we'll have to do it more often.

Our plans on Saturday were changed because of the weather. We were going to camp overnight up in Lava,but we decided with the possibility of snow we would just make it a day trip. The leaves were absolutely gorgeous. I love the combination of pine trees and aspens. We enjoyed a day of watching conference, eating homemade soups and treats, playing cards, and being in the outdoors.

Weekend Fishing Trip

A few weekends ago Jason, his brothers, and his dad went to Island Park on a much needed fishing trip. They spent 3 days fishing, eating, talking, relaxing, and doing what boys do when they get together.
Beautiful sunset over Henry's Lake.

It's not too often that you get pictures of a guy's weekend. That is the last thing they are worried about is taking time for pictures. But thankfully Jason's brother Casey enjoys photography as a hobby and does an amazing job at it. Thanks for some great pictures Casey!

Gary standing next to the Yellowstone River. Jason really enjoyed being able to spend a weekend with his dad. It brought back a lot of memories of the good old days growing up. It seems like when you get married and start your own family, sometimes we forget to take the time to create memories with our parents.
On the way home they drove through Yellowstone National Park. They picked the perfect day to go through, it didn't cost them anything because it was National Parks day.

A picture of the boys in front of the cabin they stayed in.
(Gary, Jake, Jason, Casey)

Jason enjoying a relaxing day out on the lake. (This sure bets a day in the office).

The next 3 pictures are great proof of what they actually caught. You know how fishing trip stories can be...

Jason
Casey
Jake

Happy Birthday Ty!!

So I'm a few weeks behind on everything it seems. A few weeks ago Jason and I, took my younger brother to Toad's for his birthday. He is the only child left at home and my mom thought he would have more fun with Jason than if she would have taken him. So she hired us for the evening to help celebrate his birthday. I was really impressed with this place. It is in Ogden just off of the freeway. They have miniature golf, go-karts, laser tag, rock climbing wall, batting cages, and an arcade. Their prices are pretty reasonable, and they have packages that allow you to do everything for 3 or 5 hours. The more people you take the better the prices are. Jason and I thought it would be a fun date night place. So if anyone is every looking for something fun to do go and check it out.

Ty on his 15th birthday. He was being obnoxious
wouldn't stand for a normal picture.

They have 2 different miniature golf courses.

Ty and his friend Grant playing in the arcade.

Jason trying to beat me on the race track.